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[02 May 2004|04:19pm]
life just has no meaning

my dad hit me yesturday....it makes me cry that i have no1

my best friend left me here alone it seems that everyone i become close to leaves me i hate live i cut 30 times............only god understands

ben
blessed be
2 you cut to deep - cut

[14 Apr 2004|09:02pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

ok my fuckin parents are spliting up and i just want to cut and die i feel so alone not even god is there for me now.......

read tis poem.........

im going to draw a piicture,a picture with a twist,ill draw it with a razor blade,ill draw it on my wrist,as i draw this picture a foutain will appear,and as this foutain flows,washing away my sorrow,washing away my fear,my troubles wwill disapear.......

4 you cut to deep - cut

[12 Apr 2004|10:14pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

my parents are splitting i hate life i think this mite make me break....its so funny that they now i cut and have depression and they do this to me.......im goin to break

3 you cut to deep - cut

[08 Apr 2004|12:58am]
[ mood | awake ]

ok im so confused , ive been goin out with tthis gurl for 9 months.....but i have lost fellins for her and i really like this other gurl....i feel like cuttin cause all my friends have some one to hold and love for and i .....i9 just feel so alone.....



then my parents dont care bout me i tolold them i cut and that i have depression i they just said well we'll let u see a doctor all of us...and i said no just me and they said no cause ill tell them lies about them and i dont know.....

ben
blessed be

4 you cut to deep - cut

[21 Mar 2004|08:20pm]
[ mood | jealous ]

well life still hurts

me and my gurl got back together but im pissed at her cause she gave a 16 guy a handjob.what should i do.......

i feel like cuttin
i want to move out of this hell hole i hate my house and i hate my family they all make me feel like shit....i dont really hate them i just wish they would listen to me i hate it...and when i told them i was raped they said nothing to me they never talk to me about it...

6 you cut to deep - cut

[18 Mar 2004|01:57pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

life has no meaning people in this world deserve to die ....and some deserve to live but most should die i hate all thoughs people who judge me for being stupid cause i cut...and i just hate my life....

Rape

my heart is racing i feel like know is listening to my screams the pain fills my tears i scream and no1 hears..then i hear some one telling me to shut up or ill kill you ... i cant stop scream so he choke me i feel trapped in this pain and secret forever.....

that poem is about me bein raped when i was 11

1 you cut to deep - cut

[16 Mar 2004|10:10pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

hey my hole world is a mess .......i cut all this week........i cut my wrist stomach ancle and chest......its so hard watching all your friends having some one to snuggle and having someone to kiss and i just feel like i have no1...but i really do have someone but we broke up but i still love her and she loves me but its soooo hard ive cheated on her once and i wanted to kill myself but she is the one i will marry and i know that and always will.......

and all u people that think im stupid and suicidle just cause i cut u can go fuck your self and dont judge it if u havent done it....

4 you cut to deep - cut

[13 Mar 2004|08:39pm]
[ mood | horny ]

Hey its me again, srry but i forgot my pass word.... lifes beeen good so far but ya it u had n e remarks or comments bout my last entries post them again cause thats was the wrong emailaddress......

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[09 Mar 2004|07:44pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

to day has been ok except this bitch named chelsea god i want to fuck her up she is so fucking anuing and im the only one with the guts to tell her......ne ways this is another pome i wrote.........
DEPRESSION

as i sit in the corner of my room alone shakeing from the screaming in my ears and as i feel all the pain of others and the pain of my blade when it touches my skin i cant stop the bleeding of blood and pain im trapped in this corner forever and ever.........

Only If THEY Knew

only if THEY knew how it feels to be made fun of,only if THEY knew how it feels when your eyes hurt from crying soo much,only if THEY knew how it feels when you are lead to cut your skin, only if THEY knew how it feels to go to bed every night and not want to wake up.ONLY IF THEY KNEW

that poem is for all thoughs mean and sick ass fuckers who get pleasure from my pain....

5 you cut to deep - cut

[07 Mar 2004|07:35pm]
[ mood | horny ]

god, lifes a bitch
i wrote this poem about a month ago....
PAIN
from life to death you will have this felling of little needles going in your heart, the one feeling that makes you cry the most, but when that last tear falls the feeling is forgotten.........

2 you cut to deep - cut

[06 Mar 2004|07:09pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

i am new i am trying this out
ben

6 you cut to deep - cut

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